Ticking Hands, Taking Hands

Tick, tick, tick
The time passes by
Minutes are leaving
Never to return
This little clock
So haunting
Is it mocking
Cursing me
Everything runs away
Never to return
Wanting something
Something more
Oh, cruel hands
They do nothing
Nothing but take
In my silence
You shout
Shout at me
Reminding me
All the things lost
Never to come again
Tick, tick, tick…


Markings, Reminders

Imprinted upon my very souls

Lines etched deeply in my heart

Carved by the times I didn’t have a way

Can you even imagine

An event so traumatic

The images play on repeat

As if they were yesterday

The tragedies of life can pile high

Taking away pieces of me

Leaving seemingly nothing left

You may be thinking

Just move on, get over it


Not on hurt

Or even two

But maybe to scale

A hundred or so to begin with

Each a mark on my being

Trying to live

To not be defined by it all

To more than just survive

And give hope even to those who terrorized me

So every day I work it through

Try so so hard to let it go

To release the white knuckle grasp

Holding on for dear life

And through most of it

Not wanting to be alive

Death and darkness were my dearest friends

And now each day I battle

Taking back the stolen fields

The happenings of my sound mind

To revive a broken heart

Takes more than time

And the when is a point in my life

That is undefined

Can you at least just take my hand

Walk with me awhile

Along the shoreline

The battered land I reside in

Please love this unlovable piece

For this me is all I have

What In The World

This world has little to offer me

These thoughts has been breeding deeply

Within me I feel this truth

There are many tempting things

Materialism is running rampant

Always wanting what we think we need

I do give in way to often

The next best technology teaching me

A great sweater warming while fashionable

I am however trying to not be influenced

Not by what is the latest hot topic

I fall victim to the desires growing by my need to express

Who am I and what does that mean

How can I show what that is

I have begun to realize that fact

Buying things that reflect the inner you is a way

But there are far better

More simple yet profoundly freeing

In all the fury of the past storms

I have realized less is so much more

Less to cling to holding you down

Where in this world do I belong

Slowly with each passing moment I know

I do not belong to this world

And in reality I really do not want to

Anything beautiful and great about it

Was given to it by it’s creator

Everything else is just not worth it


Now is Not to Late

Life is to short to wait, to think that there will be a tomorrow,

But right now, it isn’t to late.

There is never enough hours in the day to keep up with the daily needs,

But right now, you have the time.

Life is to short to be wasted on trivial matters,

But right now, you can make a change.

Don’t make mistakes, unless you are willing to learn from them,

So right now, learn, change, grow.

Going through life living only in the pain, don’t waste the joy,

So right now, live in love.

Be set free from the burnt and broken life,

Fly willingly into an open sky,

Let us dance to a tune hope and life.

Now is the the time to make life a place worth living,

Live now.

I Won’t Let You Define Me

I didn’t know my worth or even understand that meaning

What am, who am and what did that mean

To me I believe, whole-heartedly to be a nothing in this something world

Broken and shamed, to forever be maimed

To be used up by the first person to capture me I was subconsciously taught

No worth to be bought, only stolen and shredded

Yes, from as far back as I can remember, to beyond my younger years, this was my belief system

Forever a burden as long as I kept breathing

And as I grew most others I met would confirm those beliefs

Infesting my mind and my heart with such darkness

Broken and brittle, living as the undeserving victim

How disgusting a life not lived, may have been beaten and shattered

But a choice I finally made to no longer be battered

To surrender my life to the One living higher

To Love eternal it did matter, my life in shambles

Don’t be a victim, to invite in sorrow and sadness

My beloved you are, so your worth is beyond what you see or may ever believe

Don’t choose to believe all the lies surrounding

Be free and alive, living life to thrive

For the past, those shadows will only define you as you let them

Die to darkness and thrive in the light of each morning

For your days lost in pain will no longer rule your living

Nothing done to me has defined me, but may be a blessing to mold me

Each broken thing can now be rebuilt on a sturdy foundation

Now beauty will be formed from these ashes, forever and ever again

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Time Unraveled

Time has carved its name upon my brow

Blessings that it has not been with frow

Etched grievously each broken song

Written with not so gentle hands

These harsh and cruel darkened fingers

Curling venomously around his tools of strife

Yet age has not conquered this life

I’m freed from those lines that cage us

Suppressing all living a life of abundance

No matter how hard you attack me

I know I will survive

I know that time will never rule my life


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What is in Reality

I had a thought the other day
One of sadness
Of hopeless decay
One in which there was no hope
No returning of the norm
Sorrow filled my heart
To the brim
What now
Where to
Nothing is the truth
If you don’t want it to be
Reality is fiction
Falsified the truth
So the pain dwindles
And lessens the hurt
Or brings me back to life
I am gone
Lost in mind
And soul
Forever slipping from the living
Life unlived
When harm is being
Sleep away
Slip away
Here today
Gone tomorrow

He became found

I have found him
I have found the best man
Truly a gentleman of high standards
Better then all the rest
So true I can not be blue
Cheesy you may jest
Exaggerate you may laugh
But believe when I say he is best beyond every cost
The way he loves may can beat the test
He knows me deeply
With every breath
He can touch me so sweetly
In a passionate caress
More of me apart of him and he of me
Then any could design
Made for each other
Marked before birth
Two stars aligned in the spaces far from reach
To love and to hold
To be forever more
He was harder to find
Harder then to find a needle in amongst the hay
All the trash and scum waded through
Enduring pains unknown
Falling depths undiscovered
And alas should never be seen
The horrors I have lived to discover this treasure
The man beyond my dreams
Plucked from among the many glowing galaxies
The only man for me
My prince so charming
So strong yet safe
His arms are my heaven send
The sanctuary beauty and love
Getting my gut all caught up in a twist
My heart leaps bounds at a single kiss
Souls tide together
By each owns heart string