If I would have known my future
I would have asked to not be born
Beg to be aborted
I know that sounds sick
Maybe a little demented
Life has twisted my perception of it
At least that is how I could feel
The way my thoughts try to wander
But in truth
Life is precious and dear
I have been given so much
Even through the raving storms
Inches upon inches of rain
When I look back at all the pain
I wonder how I made it
I try to stay away
Without running far in the other direction
Stay in the present
Be in this place right here
Trauma and ranges of fear haunt me
Living is a hard feet to accomplish
Each day a trial
But I wake up
I get up and move
My voice is weak to this day
Barely audible above life’s static
I am here
Depending on something greater
To more than get me by
I hope one day I will live more
Living to thrive
That is what I believe
On the other side of it all
No more
Only brighter
Live life lighter Today
For that is all I really have