With a How


What is called when you want to live, but yearn to die?
What are the words to use when none can describe?
Why does the keep hurting even after the time has gone?
Why must I live those days on a constant repeat?
When these wounds heal, or close, or vanish from sight?
When will my memory recall the joyful times alone?
Where is the place to rest away from haunting dreams?
Where the darkness rest I seem to always be…
How do we fight a seemingly hopeless battle?
How am I to live when I really want to fade away?

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Overwrought is My Way, Dispirited is My Path


Can any one understand the darkness inside

Will any one know the shadows I hide from

The fears so deeply ingrained by times passing

Can the wounds ever be healed

Will the scars ever fade from sight

The terrors may remain for all my life

Can any one know the shame of being powerless in my own mind

Will any one really ever care that I don’t know how to survive

The will to thrive is barely even there inside

This is the life I live each and every day

This is not the choice I want to breath

This is all I am in these shattered seconds

This may be harder to live to the next moment

This is not easy to explain to the unbroken