I gave up all My body
Gave each of you a piece
Even after you decided to take
What never was yours in the first place
I thought it made you happy
I thought maybe then we were loved
Maybe just maybe I was loved
My body wasn’t enough for you
Beaten, broken, virtues taken
The way you acted I wasn’t doing it for you
It wasn’t enough
The submission, my passiveness
Is what they call it now
What I didn’t know then
I am almost sad to know now
Has made me see the wreck I am
So to you I gave my heart
Thinking then this might just do the trick
My love will truly be shown with this part
To give much deeper
To give so much more
The pain that came from this
It was weakening the way you tore
Like a ravaged beast from hell
At the small bit of flesh within me
I felt it ache every night and every day
I wished at times that it would stop

So often I did try

The stupidity of me to go on
Giving to you like this
I couldn’t understand, at the time, how wrong it just was
But to you it seemed as if I was holding back
That I wasn’t being truthful
Hiding from you the best parts for myself
I didn’t know how wrong it was
So then to the last I had I gave my spirit, my soul
Little last part of me
The only life that kept me whole
The everything of me that I know
The very essence of my being
To you gifted, nicely wrapped in pink satin.
Like a wild dog you ripped it through and through
Devouring it with sickening pleasure
Take it down
Thrown away
As if I were a toy no longer good for play
I was used
It’s ok, you were happy
At least I tried
As I lie upon this carpet
With nothing left inside
I am nothing
That’s what was said
So all I gave was worthless
All I wanted was to make you smile
Hope love was all we’d be in
My hope of something brighter was nothing more than a nightmare

Now I’m broken and I’m shamed
I didn’t know what it wasn’t
I wasn’t taught to feel the wrong
Understanding the pain was not my fate
Was something I couldn’t grasp
Knowing your worth not much more than nothing
Having this knowledge through your life
How can you expect something normal
How can you expect me to be alright
I didn’t know I was broken
You expected perfection
Now I see it was a scheme
For the masks have fallen
You all are but the same
Broken objects thinking, beating down the smallest
Will most surely make you the tallest
That you were better than I
So full of shattered dreams and broken thoughts

I’m sure it felt so good to you
Broken
Fallen
Forgotten

Now
Now your all gone
I am moving on
I am trying to keep going
Soon It’ll be nothing more than an awful dream
And you’ll be nothing
Not to me
I’ll move on
I think I might some day be happy
Someday
And at least I know what it really means, now, to be so
To be happy
Have fun in your broken, shattered world

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